Vultures

It seems I have come to a crossroads in the relationships in my life.
There are people though once dear to me, I have to let go of because they have shown me time and time again that my best interests are far from their hearts.
It’s very sad that these individuals chose to reveal themselves in this way at a time like this, when I’ve just lost my father.
But, I’m thankful to God that I now know who and what I am dealing with.
Wolf in sheeps clothing.

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I don’t think my father has much time left

Just got back from hospice. Dad wouldn’t eat today and was in and out of consciousness all afternoon. He mentioned fish and how to cook it, but wouldn’t eat any when they brought it to him. He’d keep saying he’d east some, but would say ‘,not yet’ when offered food.
He is drinking water though.
A little anyways.
He’s still in pain (about an 8 he said when they asked), and even grimaces from it in his sleep.
The cancer hurts and so do the blood clots in his extremities.
He is still filling the urine bag so his kidneys and bladder are still working and his breathing is faster than usual and a little shallow, it isn’t labored.
His right arm is still swollen, but his left has gone down considerably, but they both hurt and he has trouble moving them.
He’s confused and mumbles to himself.
Doesn’t respond and/or understand many questions either.
My dad is going.
But he won’t admit it.
He keeps saying he will deal with things later.
Today, sitting there I wanted to be a source of comfort but I also felt incredibly sad.
This is THE hardest thing I have ever been through in my entire life.

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